i wrote this the other day but for some reason it wouldn't show up. hopefully it will today

maybe this is more personal than about 'stables'I'm moving soon, i am staying in nottingham for another week although my stuff is going home tomorrow. i have bought a new large rucksack as after 12 years my other one is starting to split, i worry about carrying my laptop in it and it falling out on the floor. I have so much stuff, i am being selective about what to keep for the week, i don't really want to exceed my rucksack apart from the black bag i keep my laptop. carrying things is something i think about from time to time. When I played in London in they live! i took so much stuff and dragged itaround galleries in the day time, i found a picture of the set up i was using back then, i used alot of stuff. i used alot of stuff at the old angel gig and i took alot of leads spare. in derby i tried to mimimise my set up. constraints are interesting, being selective of what to use interests me alot. I sat and played my snare drum the other day just on its own and i had a piece of metal that is for resting utensils on a wok. the metal added so many possiblies to what sounds could be created and i am learning more about the possibilies of materials. exploring one things potential more that i used to. i used to just have loads of pedals and they would offen be in one chain, i don't play like that much anymore. maybe for guiatar, around christmas when i got the supershifter i was playing electric guiatar alot, my amp has been somewhere else so i have not been playing electric guitar. i have just been doing what i have to hand. i made a recording staright into my computer today because i found a cheap mic i'd never used. I'd like to do more pieces that are just using my mouth, alot of what i was doing could only be done because the mic signal was high so some of the sounds where of my breath........ the wind...... and bubbles from spit. i have been doing a thing recently were i make a tones with my voice box i guess and then a moisten my lips and limit the air flow, i am sort of then blowing a rasberry but the rasberry of my lips vibrating has a pitch too. at times i can harmonise the two sound but it doesn't last very long. i'd like to work on it so that i can do it for a long time. if i could learn circular breathing it would be incredible. i wouldn't need any equipment to tour with. i could travel with my bag and computer and video camera and perform only with my body. i would like to do this. maybe i shouldwhat i want to do unfolds so slowly and my mood can crush this.one day i want to catch, prepare, cook and eat a fish by a lakeand i want to make a recording of breaking wood up in a skip